I guess we can call this me giving myself another chance at being happy.. again...

After that awful day that I have tried so hard to forget I feel like I let myself go. And it scares me for the fact that I let him get so close and I opened up so much to him. He was there emotionally when I needed him and honestly that's all I want. Seeing as how I've never been in a normal relationship, I don't need those other things like he did. anyway this about him  its about me and how going to try t be happy without him. To prove to myself that a worth it. Bing happy. I am worth being happy.

The great racee begins tommorow. So shall sleep or else be able to wake up early manana.

Peace. Wish me luck. Or will power I guess lol    

Neutrology isn't a real term.

It's something I created to go by, refearing to my "last name" Neutron.

I think this is what I needed something to do that not MY WHOLE world would know about. I hope.

Bc my other stuff everyones on there. I don't mean to sound EMO or anything else that people might feel the need to worry about me. I hope i keep up with this, it would help me release my feelings that should be expressed but not necessarily be worried about me. does that even make sense. oh well lol

today i thought to myself lets get stuff done and cut the bullshit. like the guy from limitless. (:

I forgot what this constellation's name is. But it's my favorite.